why can’t i kill myself i didn’t sign up for life i didn’t ask for any of this i don’t want this i wish i didn’t exist i wish my entire life never happened
and whenever i ask for help i feel like such a fucking idiot i hate it more than anything and i’m so fucking ashamed of everything sure keeping stuff bottled up isn’t going to help anything but talking about it to people making them help me is so so so so so much worse than dealing with it on my own
i want to delete my blog delete my twitter throw out my phone and just walk away from my entire life
